I had one foot on the wharf and one foot in the boat and I never had peace of mind…until 13 January 1986.
No one could tell me what to do and I always found a way to get what I wanted.
My leap of faith was to surrender to Jesus as my boss and invite God to kill me. I was not making a deal to get eternal life, I was giving up everything because that was the only response that made sense once I stopped playing games with God. Afterwards I was angry at Christians because no one had told me that Christianity does not work if you only go half way.